What does your R mean?

Hahhaha....i bought this short necklace at a shop in Rundle Mall.. well at first i looked for the alphabet J but i couldn’t find any..so, i resorted to R instead...hahhahah...

So, my R means...him J Dil laga le ya

 

Step 2

So, it’s easter day that day..1^st April 2013...hahha..siap tarikh tuh..ko mampu?! Ahaks...nak dijadikan cerita...it’s Monday and it’s a public holiday...it means that, no one would be coming to the office except for some people who think that computer is much more interesting than human beings...ahhaha...

So, a day before that, i bought a computer desk for my office, since i requested one from the uni, they said that it is not available...so, yup i bought it at a very cheap price.. it’s 18.90 dollar..murahlah tuh...i had to assemble the desk my own..no biggie..i am quite good at stuff like this..u know pertukangan and stuff...my office chair, i assembled it myself..so, yeah this desk too...so, when i opened the box...i couldn’t find the screwdriver...owh screw!i went to the toilet...i looked everywhere in TE building for a screwdriver...nowhere i could find...i knew that he was in his room...so, i thought that..this would be the time for me to make a conversation with him...so, i went to his room, pretending to ask for a screwdriver..eventhough i reckon that he would have one in his office...i mean, who keep a screwdriver in his office..unless u r a mechanic...uhuhuh or a foreman...he smiled and said sorry he didn’t have one here...being smart at making a conversation, i prolonged the conversation by asking him “so, working hard eh?..whilst looking at his table” and he replied yes...and we continued and continued...

As a for the result from the conversation, i managed to get many information...enough to make me satisfied...and again people impressed with the outcome...hahaha..he is single! How did the conversation went and stuff..well, it’s too long to pen everything here...heheh..

So, that’s the 2^nd step..next would be.....hehe...rahsia..just wait for the outcome of the 3^rd step...

Owh, you are single..so am i J

Stalk much?

Well jaem, dh jadi stalker ko nie..hahha..bermulalah kisah encik ray kita...well, haritu i googled nama dier..okay, google bkn sbb nk tau psl dier..Cuma aku n fezah came ot conclusion that he might know what is happening..i mean, he might know the fact that i have a crush on him..because, he seems to be acting quite awkwardly..like there was this one time where i was making my coffee and he came to pick up his printed items and he quickly took his paper and tried to avoid any eye contact...i was standing very calm. I mean, i should be the one who got butterflies in the stomach right? The one who got very nervous and heart beats fast ...not him! So, when i discussed the matter with fezah (it does sound academic right...discuss the matter...hahah) so, we came to 2 hypothesis..1) he knew that i like him ...or 2) he likes me. Hahha..i would prefer to choose hypothesis num 2  :p

 So, as to confirm the hypotheses, i googled Raymond..well, i did that, thinking that he might google himself and that the google search directed him to my blog or perhaps my twitter since i did post something about him. Then, it turned out that neither my blog nor my twitter came out as one of the hundreds of the search results..so, it is impossible for him to find out the truth...hmmm,  alang2 menyeluk pekasam, biar sampai ke pangkal lengan...bak kata org melayu kita...i further explored the search to google image...i found some Raymond usher pictures and other Raymond in other parts of the world..then i narrowed down the search to Raymond unisa....1^st page...blablabla..2^nd page...what?! i found his picture...excitedly but slowly, i brought the mouse to his picture and clicked on it. There it goes! I found his fullname...as to be sure, i googled his fullname, and guess what...i found unisa homepage of his...hahaha..the details about him! Well, not as detailed as i wanted to know but detailed enough that i now knew where he comes from...where he works..rough calculation of his age..his field of interest and when he started his phd...hahaha...smart me huh J

Nak dijadikan cerita pulak...i also got directed to his facebook page and his twitter account...unfortunately he set both as private..so i couldn’t view his..i seriously dying to know his status...in a relationship? Engaged? Married? Single? Complicated? Owh my....uhuhu....nevertheless, i was so happy that day...so happy that my fever went away!hahah...amazing huh....

I told my friends here...they were like..owh my jaem u like him sooo much!!! They are amazed with the findings..haha..i wonder would they be amazed with the findings of my research? Well, intercultural communication may not be as interesting Raymond. Ahaks...

Sharon tried to help me to find out his status...she requested to be his friend in facebook...but it resulted in vain..uhuhuhu..but it’s ok...he has no longer set his account as private..i could read his posts..he is not an active user of facebook anyway..but he seems to like food..he did post quite a number of pictures of food...and they all look yummy!!!...owh Raymond...how similar we are..i also love food J

That’s the 1^st step to the ta’aruf session...hahaha..

Hi Raymond, my name is jamilah.. J

Pelik dah ni

Okay, ini sgt pelik lagilah ajaib. Aku nk sign utk masukkan post baru kt blog..tp xdpt..aku guna google chrome..xdpt..then aku guna internet explorer..kuar error pulaks...eh eh..sajer je xnk bg aku update blog aku k topis kan..xper2..aku bijak..hehhe..aku draft kt Microsoft word kt topis..then blk umah kang aku uploadlh ngn tepon bijak aku..uhuh..bijak kan..bijak lah sangatttt...ayuh ke entry yang seterusnya..

泣き崩れる

I always wanted to cry in front of someone..but i just cant..i always wanted to tell someone that I am not ok. That I need a hug. I need someone to pat on the shoulder and tell me that things will be okay. I need someone who would literally give me a shoulder to cry on. But i just cant. I don’t know how to.. i just don’t know how to. At the end i would cry in the office, when there is no one there. I would cry in the toilet when i shower. I would cry when i pray. I would silently cry in bed. I would cry when i talk a walk home from the campus. And hide my face under the hat when someone passed by me.

No, this is not about wanting a husband or desperately wanting to get married etc..but it’s the act of spilling out everytgh from your heart to someone else and cry the heart out...i just cant..i don’t know how to..i often get calls from friends and they cried when they shared the problems..i would listen and console them..sometimes my friends would come to me and do the same thing. They can talk to someone and cried..and they really did !..i cant! I mean, i would text my friends and share my problems and tell them that i was crying when i texted them. They would console me, of course. I would cry to the extent that i feel like lie down in bed and rest. I can do that, provided that there are no one in front of me. Some of my friends, when i told them that i cried, they would call me. I know that the intention was good, but i would not answer the call. I just can’t. I would text them back saying that i could not answer the call, let’s just text.

Ego?  Not sure..mgkn sbb xnak org sekeliling susah kot..jd org sntiasa nmpk kita kuat gagah perkasa...ahha...

 

Tapi xper...because I have Allah with me. I can always cry crazily and talk at the same time with my runny nose to Allah..He will always there to listen to me. Alhamdulillah....

David Foster

I would say that David Foster is a genius! i love all of his songs..i mean all! this is one of my favourite..well i have a few..but feel like posting this one right now..hehe..

TELL HIM  by 

CELINE DION & BARBARA STREISAND

Songwriters: THOMPSON, LINDA / FOSTER, DAVID / AFANASIEFF, WALTER

I'm scared
So afraid to show I care
Will he think me weak
If I tremble when I speak
Oooh - what if
There's another one he's thinking of
Maybe he's in love
I'd feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel
I don't know what to do

I've been there
With my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
You can't let the chance
To love him pass you by

Should I

Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Touch him
With the gentleness you feel inside
Your love can't be denied
The truth will set you free
You'll have what's meant to be
All in time you'll see

I love him
Of that much I can be sure
I don't think I could endure
If I let him walk away
When I have so much to say

I'll

Love is light that surely glows
In the hearts of those who know
It's a steady flame that grows
Feed the fire with all the passion you can show
Tonight love will assume it's place
This memory time cannot erase
Your faith will lead love where it has to go

Never let him go

Idea

Idea ni boleh dtg bila2 masa shj..kadang2 idea dtg tanpa diduga..kumengharapkan untuk idea dtg pd waktu yg kuperlukan, namun Allah maha mengetahui..didatangkan idea pd waktu yg kita rasa amat mencabar untuk mengarang idea tersebut. Paling mencabar bila idea dtg disaat baru masuk waktu solat..Hati nk terus pergi solat, tp kepala ckp, kalu g solat skrg, kang hilang idea..tulis lh jap, isi2 penting sblm idea hilang..then biler mula menulis..leka plaks dgn menulis..tgk2 eh dh skt sejam..mencabarkan waktu mcm tuh..jd, bila dtg idea di saat masuk waktu solat, g solat dulu..idea dr Allah...kalu hilang pun, kerana Allah..maka solatlah kerana Allah dan kerjalah pun kerana Allah. Insya Allah idea akan ada. kalu hilang pun, tahu mana nak cari. kalu xjumpa nak cari pun, ader lah hikmah kepada terjadinya hal itu. jd, jgn kecewa.

Allah ma'ii, Insya Allah