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"Oh! Darling" The Beatles

Oh! Darling, please believe me
I'll never do you no harm
Believe me when I tell you
I'll never do you no harm

Oh! Darling, if you leave me
I'll never make it alone
Believe me when I thank you, ooo
Don't ever leave me alone

When you told me
You didn't need me anymore
Well you know I nearly broke down and cried
When you told me
You didn't need me anymore
Well you know I nearly broke down and died

Oh! Darling, if you leave me
I'll never make it alone
Believe me when I tell you
I'll never do you no harm
Believe me darling

When you told me
You didn't need me anymore
Well you know I nearly broke down and cried
When you told me
You didn't need me anymore
Well you know I nearly broke down and died

Oh! Darling, please believe me
I'll never let you down
Oh, believe me darling
Believe me when I tell you, ooo
I'll never do you no harm

FIRST TIME EVER I SAW YOUR FACE

The first time ever I saw your face

I thought the sun rose in your eyes

And the moon and the stars were the gifts you gave

To the dark and the endless skies,

my love

To the dark and the endless skies

And the first time ever I kissed your mouth

I felt the earth move in my hands

Like the trembling heart of a captive bird

That was there at my command,

my love

That was there at my command, my love
And the first time ever I lay with you

I felt your heart so close to mine

And I knew our joy would fill the earth

And last till the end of time,

my love

And it will last till the end of time, my love
The first time ever I saw your face,

your face Your face, your face

L’Occitane

Produk ni mmg dh lamer brkurun wujudnya di pasaran pasaran seluruh dunia..eh seluruh dunia ke? Kt Malaysia mmg ader produk nie..org yg mula2 aku tgk menggila pasal produk nie adalah sahabat baik aku sendiri..si faraha http://ayurantsandrambles.blogspot.com.au/ n ady...mmg masa degree dulu, 2 org nie, kalu Nampak kedai L’Occitane mata tu mesti bersinar2...aku sendiri xpernah masuk..kalu depa masuk, aku akn duk luar jer..not my thing lah konon.

 

 So here are the things that I bought…heheh.. i bought the shea butter, hand cream n rose solid perfume...and i got two gifts..the hand n body was as well as eye cream..ehehhe..

but i have to give credits to Putri Akma..sbb die yg mencadangkan ...heheh..thanx beb!

What does your R mean?

Hahhaha....i bought this short necklace at a shop in Rundle Mall.. well at first i looked for the alphabet J but i couldn’t find any..so, i resorted to R instead...hahhahah...

So, my R means...him J Dil laga le ya

 

Step 2

So, it’s easter day that day..1^st April 2013...hahha..siap tarikh tuh..ko mampu?! Ahaks...nak dijadikan cerita...it’s Monday and it’s a public holiday...it means that, no one would be coming to the office except for some people who think that computer is much more interesting than human beings...ahhaha...

So, a day before that, i bought a computer desk for my office, since i requested one from the uni, they said that it is not available...so, yup i bought it at a very cheap price.. it’s 18.90 dollar..murahlah tuh...i had to assemble the desk my own..no biggie..i am quite good at stuff like this..u know pertukangan and stuff...my office chair, i assembled it myself..so, yeah this desk too...so, when i opened the box...i couldn’t find the screwdriver...owh screw!i went to the toilet...i looked everywhere in TE building for a screwdriver...nowhere i could find...i knew that he was in his room...so, i thought that..this would be the time for me to make a conversation with him...so, i went to his room, pretending to ask for a screwdriver..eventhough i reckon that he would have one in his office...i mean, who keep a screwdriver in his office..unless u r a mechanic...uhuhuh or a foreman...he smiled and said sorry he didn’t have one here...being smart at making a conversation, i prolonged the conversation by asking him “so, working hard eh?..whilst looking at his table” and he replied yes...and we continued and continued...

As a for the result from the conversation, i managed to get many information...enough to make me satisfied...and again people impressed with the outcome...hahaha..he is single! How did the conversation went and stuff..well, it’s too long to pen everything here...heheh..

So, that’s the 2^nd step..next would be.....hehe...rahsia..just wait for the outcome of the 3^rd step...

Owh, you are single..so am i J

Stalk much?

Well jaem, dh jadi stalker ko nie..hahha..bermulalah kisah encik ray kita...well, haritu i googled nama dier..okay, google bkn sbb nk tau psl dier..Cuma aku n fezah came ot conclusion that he might know what is happening..i mean, he might know the fact that i have a crush on him..because, he seems to be acting quite awkwardly..like there was this one time where i was making my coffee and he came to pick up his printed items and he quickly took his paper and tried to avoid any eye contact...i was standing very calm. I mean, i should be the one who got butterflies in the stomach right? The one who got very nervous and heart beats fast ...not him! So, when i discussed the matter with fezah (it does sound academic right...discuss the matter...hahah) so, we came to 2 hypothesis..1) he knew that i like him ...or 2) he likes me. Hahha..i would prefer to choose hypothesis num 2  :p

 So, as to confirm the hypotheses, i googled Raymond..well, i did that, thinking that he might google himself and that the google search directed him to my blog or perhaps my twitter since i did post something about him. Then, it turned out that neither my blog nor my twitter came out as one of the hundreds of the search results..so, it is impossible for him to find out the truth...hmmm,  alang2 menyeluk pekasam, biar sampai ke pangkal lengan...bak kata org melayu kita...i further explored the search to google image...i found some Raymond usher pictures and other Raymond in other parts of the world..then i narrowed down the search to Raymond unisa....1^st page...blablabla..2^nd page...what?! i found his picture...excitedly but slowly, i brought the mouse to his picture and clicked on it. There it goes! I found his fullname...as to be sure, i googled his fullname, and guess what...i found unisa homepage of his...hahaha..the details about him! Well, not as detailed as i wanted to know but detailed enough that i now knew where he comes from...where he works..rough calculation of his age..his field of interest and when he started his phd...hahaha...smart me huh J

Nak dijadikan cerita pulak...i also got directed to his facebook page and his twitter account...unfortunately he set both as private..so i couldn’t view his..i seriously dying to know his status...in a relationship? Engaged? Married? Single? Complicated? Owh my....uhuhu....nevertheless, i was so happy that day...so happy that my fever went away!hahah...amazing huh....

I told my friends here...they were like..owh my jaem u like him sooo much!!! They are amazed with the findings..haha..i wonder would they be amazed with the findings of my research? Well, intercultural communication may not be as interesting Raymond. Ahaks...

Sharon tried to help me to find out his status...she requested to be his friend in facebook...but it resulted in vain..uhuhuhu..but it’s ok...he has no longer set his account as private..i could read his posts..he is not an active user of facebook anyway..but he seems to like food..he did post quite a number of pictures of food...and they all look yummy!!!...owh Raymond...how similar we are..i also love food J

That’s the 1^st step to the ta’aruf session...hahaha..

Hi Raymond, my name is jamilah.. J

Pelik dah ni

Okay, ini sgt pelik lagilah ajaib. Aku nk sign utk masukkan post baru kt blog..tp xdpt..aku guna google chrome..xdpt..then aku guna internet explorer..kuar error pulaks...eh eh..sajer je xnk bg aku update blog aku k topis kan..xper2..aku bijak..hehhe..aku draft kt Microsoft word kt topis..then blk umah kang aku uploadlh ngn tepon bijak aku..uhuh..bijak kan..bijak lah sangatttt...ayuh ke entry yang seterusnya..

泣き崩れる

I always wanted to cry in front of someone..but i just cant..i always wanted to tell someone that I am not ok. That I need a hug. I need someone to pat on the shoulder and tell me that things will be okay. I need someone who would literally give me a shoulder to cry on. But i just cant. I don’t know how to.. i just don’t know how to. At the end i would cry in the office, when there is no one there. I would cry in the toilet when i shower. I would cry when i pray. I would silently cry in bed. I would cry when i talk a walk home from the campus. And hide my face under the hat when someone passed by me.

No, this is not about wanting a husband or desperately wanting to get married etc..but it’s the act of spilling out everytgh from your heart to someone else and cry the heart out...i just cant..i don’t know how to..i often get calls from friends and they cried when they shared the problems..i would listen and console them..sometimes my friends would come to me and do the same thing. They can talk to someone and cried..and they really did !..i cant! I mean, i would text my friends and share my problems and tell them that i was crying when i texted them. They would console me, of course. I would cry to the extent that i feel like lie down in bed and rest. I can do that, provided that there are no one in front of me. Some of my friends, when i told them that i cried, they would call me. I know that the intention was good, but i would not answer the call. I just can’t. I would text them back saying that i could not answer the call, let’s just text.

Ego?  Not sure..mgkn sbb xnak org sekeliling susah kot..jd org sntiasa nmpk kita kuat gagah perkasa...ahha...

 

Tapi xper...because I have Allah with me. I can always cry crazily and talk at the same time with my runny nose to Allah..He will always there to listen to me. Alhamdulillah....