Emcee

Alright, to be honest..emcee-ing is not my thing. So, nak dijadikan cerita, my bff here in adelaide nak kawen, so she asked me to be the emcee for her wedding reception..i was like..goshhh, beb kamu bagilh jem tugas lain..as long as bukan emcee...then yg lain2, ala jem suara kamu sesuai jadi mecee...ala2 suara dj sampaikn salam cinta yg tgh2 malam tuh..ah sudahhhh...maka, sbb itu wedding bff, daku akur akan permintaannya...uhuhu

I was informed a month 2 months earlier...tpi xdelah wat persiapan awal2 bagai..sbb kalau wat prsiapan awal2, maknanyer kena fikir awal lah kan..and the thought of imagining myself jd emcee, mmbuatkn perut brgelora n neves...jadi, xyah fikir awal2...hahaha...

Then, awal nov..barulah aku prsiapkn mental dan jiwa utk menghadapi hari yg mncabar itu...so, google kt tenet..tgk samples..then drafted my version then minta tlg kawanku yg pakar dlm hal pengacaraan majlis ni...my fellow teslian Haz, minta die tlg tgk n all...die kata good to go...cuma kena tambah jokes ke apa ke...supaya xbosan majlis...ok..noted..

Aku pun, brbincanglh dgn event manager...flow majlis n all, dgn sound technician....cue lagu pengantin masuk, potong kek n all...

Malam sblm majlis, kitaorg g dewan, siapkn dewan n rehearsal...so, aku, dgn xkenal saper2 kt sini selain clan aku...mmg duk diam je lah..pendek kata, xbrcakap ngn org pun...byk sebab aku xberamah mesra ngn mereka2 yg trlibat a.k.a ajk majlis...1) sbb aku penat n mengantuk sbb pagi tu br sampai dr melbourne n xcukup rehat n tidur...so basically emotionally n physically tired...2) sbb aku tgh neves memikirkan majlis esok..3) sbb aku tgh serabut duk pikir mcm2...jadilah aku seorg manusia atau akak postgrad (panggilan dari adik2 undergrad) yg sombong n xcampur org...sowee dik...kalau korang kenal akak..akak mmg cool n best!...ahahahha...suka hatilh nk perasan kan..blog aku..hahaha...so, bila rehearsal tuh..alhamdulillah went smooth..dgn bantuan dr groom yg mmg ade pengalamn dlm showbiz n emcee-ing..bincang skrip n all dgn groom...masa tgh rehearsal tuh..adelah few yg kagum...ckp kt event manager..weh, mana ko dpt emcee weh...hebat r die ckp omputeh..so, event mngr pn ckplah..weh, tu lecturer tu...lecturer tesl tuh...then yg lain2 pun...owhhh patutlah...hebat weh..sedap giler...hahahah..aduhai dik..akak mmg teslian..tp bknlh lecturer tesl..hhahah...anyways...pada hari kejadian..

Hari kejadian - 24 November 2013 - Payneham Library Hall, Adelaide

lps akad nikah kt masjid Adelaide, kitaorg berempat ni (Alya, Nurul, Fezah n aku) brgegas ke dewan utk persiapn akhir....sampai dewan..aku trus ke podium akulh..then few minutes b4 start aku touch up make up lu...heheheh..itu penting..xnaklh emcee muka dull kannn...walaupun aku yakin aku tetap menarik tanpa makeup...ahahhaha....busukkkk..so, nk mula majlis tuh..mmg agak cuaks..dtambah tgk tetamu dh mula hadir n duduk..omputeh ade..msians ade...singaporeans ade..mcm2 bangsalah yg ader..heheh..jd aku pun mulalh majlis bila dpt cue dr groom..sbb ade kompang n all..jadi, semua brjalan lancar..walaupn tmpt aku kena hijack oleh org..hahaha..xnak cter byk..heheh...bila habis majlis, mmg aku lega giler..n barulh rasa penat kaki brdiri..ahhaha...so, makan..then tlg2 kemas sikit2..sbb adik2 ajk mmg cekap buat kerja n family both sides yg dtg pn sgt bagus mmberi kerjasama..hehehe..
Alhamdulillah semua brjalan lancar...tetamu n family both sides pn ckp yg i did a good job..ehehhe...xtaulh betul ke x..atau saje nk ambik hati ke apa kan...heheh..tp i took it as a compliment...

Bila dh balik umah...somehow, rasa mcm best jgk jd emcee...hehehe..mungkin boleh dipertimbangkn kot utk jd emcee in the future..hehehe..

Anyways, dikesempatan ini, thanks pada semua yg mmberi sokongn...i kept on telling them that ,,it was my first time,,,and they understood n support me...thanks a lot guys! ...domo arigatou ne!...hehehe..

Ok, sekian sudah cerita emcee..heheh...

Ja ne!

Random-ness-ity

Salam,

memang sudah lama x update and tulis apa2 di jurnal atas talian ini...hhahaha..bukan xmau tulis, kalau ikutkan hati, perasaan, idea..banyakkkkk nak dicoretkan..tapi bila diikutkan jari dan mood, mcm kureng rajinlah pulaks..hahah..itulah, bila anggota badan xmau bkerjasama..sama lah mcm perut dan mulut dan fikiran yg xnak bkerjasama, asyikkk je nak makan...ngeh2..ok, yg itu xbrkaitan...hehehe

ok, nak tulis apa hari ni?

mcm ni, hari ni, akan cerita psl 4 topik yg dinyatakan pd entry sblm nie...xleh lah nk skip kan....hehehe..

Topik 1: Raymond

Ok, bagi yg mengenali diriku dgn agak rapat, mengikuti blog ni, twitter and kdg2 fb..mesti tau siap raymond..haha..well, suka raymond..raymond, andai dikau mmbaca post ini, ketahuilah bahawa diriku suka padamu...heheeh..

so, long story short...we have not bumped into each other for quite some times coz, i rarely go to the office lately...so, nk di jadikn cerita, i think last week kot..i was walking to my room and he was about to enter his room, 1 kaki dh masuk dlm bilik, then die toleh n undur and said hi....gosh!!! undur semata2 nk ckp hi....auuwww...rindu lah tuuuu...ehheheh...see, he's been missing me too...hehehehe...kalau lah betul. alangkah seronok dan bahagia nya jiwa raga ini...ehheheeh...

Topik 2: So Ji Sub and Master's Sun

Owh goshhhh...i so like this drama...Ji Sub was so....i dunno what to say...xleh nk lebey...ngeh2..tp mmg sgt mmberi kesan pd jiwa ini...hahaha..hampeh kan bunyi nyer..busukkk jerrr...kalu describe lebey2 kang org ingt aku ni freak plaks..so, yg pasti....mmg aku suka..suka sangt....and plus, lagu2 dlm drama tuh pun  best...all songs..mmg berkualiti, penuh makna dan menarik..jadi, pada siapa yg belum tgk tuh, silalah tgk yer....heheh

Topik 3: Lee Jong Suk and I Can Hear Your Voice

Ok, ni sorang lagi mamat korea yg bagilah watak apa2 pun...dan digandingkan dgn siapa pun, akan sentiasa nmpk serasi..i mean, how can someone is compatible to anyone...Jong suk ni, heroin muda ke...tua ke..semua pun serasi dgn dier..i mean like..semua nmpk ade chemistry..aigoo...and cerita ni pun, mmg best...i like!..jd, siapa yg blum tgk cerita ni, tgklah yer...malas nk review cerita ni kt sini..sbb saya bukan pengkritik atau reviewer movie or drama...hahahah...

Topik 4: PhD

Ok, yg ni..hmmm...xtau nk mula mcm mana..n nak cerita apa..trlalu panjang dan brpusing2...so, xmau nk cerita kt sini..hahahah

ok, maka dgn itu, habislah kesemua 4 topik yg dihutangkan.

ja ne!

kumpulan..mengumpul..kumpul

Hey ya!!!!


Hahahah, memanglah dh tersangat lama tidak menulis di sini..ngeh2..sebab...banyak kerja...tension..mmbaca..menulis benda akademik..dan juga malas...hahha...

But, there are few things that i would like to share here...ok...topik2 adalah..
1) Raymond ( as usual lah kannnnn.....ahhaha)
2) So Ji Sub dan Master's Sun
3) Lee Jong Suk dan I Can Hear your Voice
4) PhD.....kenapa akhir? sebab ini jangka masa panjang...num 2 dan 3..pendek...hahhaha

aigooo..betapalah jiwa in i berdebar berdenyup kencang nk sembang perihal 4 benda di atas...sampaikan xleh nk menaip skrg..uhuhu...

aku buat entry yg berbeza nanti psl all these 4.

jaa ne!

I'VE GOT A CRUSH ON YOU ~ LINDA RONDSTADT

How glad the many millions
Of Toms and Dicks and Williams
Would be
To capture me

But you had such persistence
You wore down my resistance
I fell
And it was swell

You're my big and brave and handsome Romeo
How I won you I will never never know
It's not that you're attractive
But oh my heart grew active
When you came into view

I've got a crush on you, sweetie pie
All the day and nighttime, hear me sigh
I never had the least notion
That I could fall with so much emotion

Could you coo
Could you care
For a cunning cottage we could share
The world will pardon my mush
Cause I've got a crush, my baby, on you

Could you coo
Could you care
For a cunning cottage we could share
The world will pardon my mush
Cause I have got a crush,
My baby, on you

BROKEN VOW ~ LARA FABIAN

Tell me her name
I want to know
The way she looks
And where you go
I need to see her face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end
Tell me again
I want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with you at night
When I'm here all alone
Remembering when I was your own
[Chorus:]
I'll let you go
I'll let you fly
Why do I keep asking why
I'll let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow
Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
That one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time
[Chorus]
I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There's more to life than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes
I'd give away my soul
To hold you once again
And never let this promise end
[Chorus]

IMPOSSIBLE ~ CHRISTINA AGUILERA

It's impossible to love you
If you don't, let me know, what you're feeling
It's impossible, for me to give you what you need
If you're always hidin it from me
I don't know what hurts you
I just, I want to make it right
'Cause boy I'm sick and tired of trying to read your mind

'Cause it's impossible
Oh, baby it's impossible
For me to love you, this way
It's impossible
Oh baby it's impossible
If you're making it this way
(if you keep treating me this way
Over, and over)

Impossible to make it easy
If you're always trying to make it so damn hard
How can I, how can I, give you all my love baby
If you're always, always putting up your guard
This is not a circus
Don't ya play me for a clown
How long can emotions keep on going up and down

'Cause it's impossible
Oh, baby it's impossible
For me to love you, this way
It's impossible
Oh baby it's impossible
If you're making it this way
(if you keep treating me this way
Over, and over)

Untuk kamu

Memang benar...It's the matter of time...and who..when..n how..

"Oh! Darling" The Beatles

Oh! Darling, please believe me
I'll never do you no harm
Believe me when I tell you
I'll never do you no harm

Oh! Darling, if you leave me
I'll never make it alone
Believe me when I thank you, ooo
Don't ever leave me alone

When you told me
You didn't need me anymore
Well you know I nearly broke down and cried
When you told me
You didn't need me anymore
Well you know I nearly broke down and died

Oh! Darling, if you leave me
I'll never make it alone
Believe me when I tell you
I'll never do you no harm
Believe me darling

When you told me
You didn't need me anymore
Well you know I nearly broke down and cried
When you told me
You didn't need me anymore
Well you know I nearly broke down and died

Oh! Darling, please believe me
I'll never let you down
Oh, believe me darling
Believe me when I tell you, ooo
I'll never do you no harm

FIRST TIME EVER I SAW YOUR FACE

The first time ever I saw your face

I thought the sun rose in your eyes

And the moon and the stars were the gifts you gave

To the dark and the endless skies,

my love

To the dark and the endless skies

And the first time ever I kissed your mouth

I felt the earth move in my hands

Like the trembling heart of a captive bird

That was there at my command,

my love

That was there at my command, my love
And the first time ever I lay with you

I felt your heart so close to mine

And I knew our joy would fill the earth

And last till the end of time,

my love

And it will last till the end of time, my love
The first time ever I saw your face,

your face Your face, your face

L’Occitane

Produk ni mmg dh lamer brkurun wujudnya di pasaran pasaran seluruh dunia..eh seluruh dunia ke? Kt Malaysia mmg ader produk nie..org yg mula2 aku tgk menggila pasal produk nie adalah sahabat baik aku sendiri..si faraha http://ayurantsandrambles.blogspot.com.au/ n ady...mmg masa degree dulu, 2 org nie, kalu Nampak kedai L’Occitane mata tu mesti bersinar2...aku sendiri xpernah masuk..kalu depa masuk, aku akn duk luar jer..not my thing lah konon.

 

 So here are the things that I bought…heheh.. i bought the shea butter, hand cream n rose solid perfume...and i got two gifts..the hand n body was as well as eye cream..ehehhe..

but i have to give credits to Putri Akma..sbb die yg mencadangkan ...heheh..thanx beb!

What does your R mean?

Hahhaha....i bought this short necklace at a shop in Rundle Mall.. well at first i looked for the alphabet J but i couldn’t find any..so, i resorted to R instead...hahhahah...

So, my R means...him J Dil laga le ya

 

Step 2

So, it’s easter day that day..1^st April 2013...hahha..siap tarikh tuh..ko mampu?! Ahaks...nak dijadikan cerita...it’s Monday and it’s a public holiday...it means that, no one would be coming to the office except for some people who think that computer is much more interesting than human beings...ahhaha...

So, a day before that, i bought a computer desk for my office, since i requested one from the uni, they said that it is not available...so, yup i bought it at a very cheap price.. it’s 18.90 dollar..murahlah tuh...i had to assemble the desk my own..no biggie..i am quite good at stuff like this..u know pertukangan and stuff...my office chair, i assembled it myself..so, yeah this desk too...so, when i opened the box...i couldn’t find the screwdriver...owh screw!i went to the toilet...i looked everywhere in TE building for a screwdriver...nowhere i could find...i knew that he was in his room...so, i thought that..this would be the time for me to make a conversation with him...so, i went to his room, pretending to ask for a screwdriver..eventhough i reckon that he would have one in his office...i mean, who keep a screwdriver in his office..unless u r a mechanic...uhuhuh or a foreman...he smiled and said sorry he didn’t have one here...being smart at making a conversation, i prolonged the conversation by asking him “so, working hard eh?..whilst looking at his table” and he replied yes...and we continued and continued...

As a for the result from the conversation, i managed to get many information...enough to make me satisfied...and again people impressed with the outcome...hahaha..he is single! How did the conversation went and stuff..well, it’s too long to pen everything here...heheh..

So, that’s the 2^nd step..next would be.....hehe...rahsia..just wait for the outcome of the 3^rd step...

Owh, you are single..so am i J

Stalk much?

Well jaem, dh jadi stalker ko nie..hahha..bermulalah kisah encik ray kita...well, haritu i googled nama dier..okay, google bkn sbb nk tau psl dier..Cuma aku n fezah came ot conclusion that he might know what is happening..i mean, he might know the fact that i have a crush on him..because, he seems to be acting quite awkwardly..like there was this one time where i was making my coffee and he came to pick up his printed items and he quickly took his paper and tried to avoid any eye contact...i was standing very calm. I mean, i should be the one who got butterflies in the stomach right? The one who got very nervous and heart beats fast ...not him! So, when i discussed the matter with fezah (it does sound academic right...discuss the matter...hahah) so, we came to 2 hypothesis..1) he knew that i like him ...or 2) he likes me. Hahha..i would prefer to choose hypothesis num 2  :p

 So, as to confirm the hypotheses, i googled Raymond..well, i did that, thinking that he might google himself and that the google search directed him to my blog or perhaps my twitter since i did post something about him. Then, it turned out that neither my blog nor my twitter came out as one of the hundreds of the search results..so, it is impossible for him to find out the truth...hmmm,  alang2 menyeluk pekasam, biar sampai ke pangkal lengan...bak kata org melayu kita...i further explored the search to google image...i found some Raymond usher pictures and other Raymond in other parts of the world..then i narrowed down the search to Raymond unisa....1^st page...blablabla..2^nd page...what?! i found his picture...excitedly but slowly, i brought the mouse to his picture and clicked on it. There it goes! I found his fullname...as to be sure, i googled his fullname, and guess what...i found unisa homepage of his...hahaha..the details about him! Well, not as detailed as i wanted to know but detailed enough that i now knew where he comes from...where he works..rough calculation of his age..his field of interest and when he started his phd...hahaha...smart me huh J

Nak dijadikan cerita pulak...i also got directed to his facebook page and his twitter account...unfortunately he set both as private..so i couldn’t view his..i seriously dying to know his status...in a relationship? Engaged? Married? Single? Complicated? Owh my....uhuhu....nevertheless, i was so happy that day...so happy that my fever went away!hahah...amazing huh....

I told my friends here...they were like..owh my jaem u like him sooo much!!! They are amazed with the findings..haha..i wonder would they be amazed with the findings of my research? Well, intercultural communication may not be as interesting Raymond. Ahaks...

Sharon tried to help me to find out his status...she requested to be his friend in facebook...but it resulted in vain..uhuhuhu..but it’s ok...he has no longer set his account as private..i could read his posts..he is not an active user of facebook anyway..but he seems to like food..he did post quite a number of pictures of food...and they all look yummy!!!...owh Raymond...how similar we are..i also love food J

That’s the 1^st step to the ta’aruf session...hahaha..

Hi Raymond, my name is jamilah.. J

Pelik dah ni

Okay, ini sgt pelik lagilah ajaib. Aku nk sign utk masukkan post baru kt blog..tp xdpt..aku guna google chrome..xdpt..then aku guna internet explorer..kuar error pulaks...eh eh..sajer je xnk bg aku update blog aku k topis kan..xper2..aku bijak..hehhe..aku draft kt Microsoft word kt topis..then blk umah kang aku uploadlh ngn tepon bijak aku..uhuh..bijak kan..bijak lah sangatttt...ayuh ke entry yang seterusnya..

泣き崩れる

I always wanted to cry in front of someone..but i just cant..i always wanted to tell someone that I am not ok. That I need a hug. I need someone to pat on the shoulder and tell me that things will be okay. I need someone who would literally give me a shoulder to cry on. But i just cant. I don’t know how to.. i just don’t know how to. At the end i would cry in the office, when there is no one there. I would cry in the toilet when i shower. I would cry when i pray. I would silently cry in bed. I would cry when i talk a walk home from the campus. And hide my face under the hat when someone passed by me.

No, this is not about wanting a husband or desperately wanting to get married etc..but it’s the act of spilling out everytgh from your heart to someone else and cry the heart out...i just cant..i don’t know how to..i often get calls from friends and they cried when they shared the problems..i would listen and console them..sometimes my friends would come to me and do the same thing. They can talk to someone and cried..and they really did !..i cant! I mean, i would text my friends and share my problems and tell them that i was crying when i texted them. They would console me, of course. I would cry to the extent that i feel like lie down in bed and rest. I can do that, provided that there are no one in front of me. Some of my friends, when i told them that i cried, they would call me. I know that the intention was good, but i would not answer the call. I just can’t. I would text them back saying that i could not answer the call, let’s just text.

Ego?  Not sure..mgkn sbb xnak org sekeliling susah kot..jd org sntiasa nmpk kita kuat gagah perkasa...ahha...

 

Tapi xper...because I have Allah with me. I can always cry crazily and talk at the same time with my runny nose to Allah..He will always there to listen to me. Alhamdulillah....

David Foster

I would say that David Foster is a genius! i love all of his songs..i mean all! this is one of my favourite..well i have a few..but feel like posting this one right now..hehe..

TELL HIM  by 

CELINE DION & BARBARA STREISAND

Songwriters: THOMPSON, LINDA / FOSTER, DAVID / AFANASIEFF, WALTER

I'm scared
So afraid to show I care
Will he think me weak
If I tremble when I speak
Oooh - what if
There's another one he's thinking of
Maybe he's in love
I'd feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel
I don't know what to do

I've been there
With my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
You can't let the chance
To love him pass you by

Should I

Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Touch him
With the gentleness you feel inside
Your love can't be denied
The truth will set you free
You'll have what's meant to be
All in time you'll see

I love him
Of that much I can be sure
I don't think I could endure
If I let him walk away
When I have so much to say

I'll

Love is light that surely glows
In the hearts of those who know
It's a steady flame that grows
Feed the fire with all the passion you can show
Tonight love will assume it's place
This memory time cannot erase
Your faith will lead love where it has to go

Never let him go

Idea

Idea ni boleh dtg bila2 masa shj..kadang2 idea dtg tanpa diduga..kumengharapkan untuk idea dtg pd waktu yg kuperlukan, namun Allah maha mengetahui..didatangkan idea pd waktu yg kita rasa amat mencabar untuk mengarang idea tersebut. Paling mencabar bila idea dtg disaat baru masuk waktu solat..Hati nk terus pergi solat, tp kepala ckp, kalu g solat skrg, kang hilang idea..tulis lh jap, isi2 penting sblm idea hilang..then biler mula menulis..leka plaks dgn menulis..tgk2 eh dh skt sejam..mencabarkan waktu mcm tuh..jd, bila dtg idea di saat masuk waktu solat, g solat dulu..idea dr Allah...kalu hilang pun, kerana Allah..maka solatlah kerana Allah dan kerjalah pun kerana Allah. Insya Allah idea akan ada. kalu hilang pun, tahu mana nak cari. kalu xjumpa nak cari pun, ader lah hikmah kepada terjadinya hal itu. jd, jgn kecewa.

Allah ma'ii, Insya Allah