I always wanted to cry in front of
someone..but i just cant..i always wanted to tell someone that I am not ok.
That I need a hug. I need someone to pat on the shoulder and tell me that
things will be okay. I need someone who would literally give me a shoulder to
cry on. But i just cant. I don’t know how to.. i just don’t know how to. At the
end i would cry in the office, when there is no one there. I would cry in the
toilet when i shower. I would cry when i pray. I would silently cry in bed. I
would cry when i talk a walk home from the campus. And hide my face under the
hat when someone passed by me.
No, this is not about wanting a husband or
desperately wanting to get married etc..but it’s the act of spilling out
everytgh from your heart to someone else and cry the heart out...i just cant..i
don’t know how to..i often get calls from friends and they cried when they
shared the problems..i would listen and console them..sometimes my friends
would come to me and do the same thing. They can talk to someone and cried..and
they really did !..i cant! I mean, i would text my friends and share my
problems and tell them that i was crying when i texted them. They would console
me, of course. I would cry to the extent that i feel like lie down in bed and
rest. I can do that, provided that there are no one in front of me. Some of my
friends, when i told them that i cried, they would call me. I know that the
intention was good, but i would not answer the call. I just can’t. I would text
them back saying that i could not answer the call, let’s just text.
Ego?
Not sure..mgkn sbb xnak org sekeliling susah kot..jd org sntiasa nmpk
kita kuat gagah perkasa...ahha...
Tapi xper...because I have Allah with me. I
can always cry crazily and talk at the same time with my runny nose to
Allah..He will always there to listen to me. Alhamdulillah....
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