Dream oh dream..go away..shuushh

Have u ever dreamt of sumthg dat u know u will never ever in ur life achieve it?..well i do..to be exact, a lot actually..well, not to the extent everyday, but yeah, quite often i guess..

sometimes i dream of doing somethg dat is quite impossible to happen ...like, meeting a person..erm, sham mix fm..kinda like his voice n he is bald!..my type definitely...ahaks..i always listen to mix fm..last week i browsed mix fm website..then look at the announcers pics..dang!i found him n to my surprise he was not like wat i imagined..uhuhuh...now, im blogging while listening to mix sunday drive..him again...ehhehe...owh, u make me smile...lalalal

then, i always dream of being a very smart n rich gal..very rich dat i can buy any shop anytime...hehehe..not good eh..i know lorh

then i always dream of having a special power..like reading people's minds, like of the heroes perhaps..ehehhe...

my sis's fren's father once said that..."biarlh berangan..bukan kena bayar pun"..yes yes uncle u r sooo true..eheheh...pun bagaimana walau..xleh nk berangan byk sgt..nanti jadi alpa...n tumpul minda..tp itulh manusia nie, mmg suka berangan ..escapism ker?hmm..lain kali lh bincang escapism nie..ehehh...

ok, now n blk ke alam realiti..sambung wat keje..uhuh..

ja ne!

Gokusen....doshitan desuka?

Salam..
this entry was supposed to be posted few weeks ago..but due to some problems (technical probs) i cudnt post it.so, i'm doing it today..uhuhuh...

My students...there are times when i think that i no longer understand u..
My students...i dont expect u to be perfect, extremely diligent,extremely obedient,extremely punctual...but at least...close to ok,close to being quite diligent, somewhat obedient and sometimes punctual..
My students...i know that life as a student is difficult, tiring,challenging and exciting at the same time..but then, studying is your only job! u should be able to submit everything on time and come to class responsibly...
My students...i dont have the ability to read people's minds.u need to let me know of what u have in mind.if u dont understand but say u understand how will i understand that u understand,understand!
My students...have u ever heard of the magic words; 'thank u','sorry','please','excuse me'.u need to say 'sorry',if u hurt someone.u need to say 'thank u' if someone helps u.u need to say 'excuse me' if u want to interrupt and u need to say 'please' when u ask for help.
My students...when did u last respect people?
My students...i am sorry for i was not able to help u.this is the end of my journey here.till we meet again.

sayonara minna san

Buatan Manusia

Salam..entry ini aku tujukan khas buat manusia2 di luar sana yang mmg suka 'mmbuat manusia'..mcm mane buat manusia?oopss bkn yg bwk perut 9 bln then brpantang 40 hari tuh.ini yg pakai jin,setan,makhluk halus etc.apa yg seronok sgt buat hal mcm ni ngn manusia lain.kalu org dh xsuka,xpayahlah nk kacau.bkn ade 1 je org dlm dunia nie.berlambak lagi manusia dalam dunia nie.gi lah cari insan jelita lain yg dpt memenuhi kehendak diri nafsu serakah mu.busuk giler punye manusia.

kalu yg duk ikut manusia tu 'saka',lain lh cter.benda yg kter xminta, tp ditakdirkn utk dpt.hmm ntahlh.yg pastinyer nk ubatkn benda2 mcm nie bkn benda yg mudah.byk hal yg kena buat, pikir,consider n so on.hidup sedikit sebyk terganggu dgn benda2 mcm nie.mmg makhluk2 halus ni wujud dlm dunia.semua pn makhluk ALLAH, kter berkongsi bumi yg samer, tp kter berlainan rupa dan kter hidup di alam yg berlainan.
kembali lh dikau ke tempat asalmu.jgn lh ganggu anak cucu.

menyedarkan diri utk sentiasa bersyukur dgn nikmat allah n kekuasaannya.kun fa ya kun..Bila Allah berkata maka jadilah ia, maka jadilah ia.

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Lagu Raya

Salam...well, walaupn tajuk utk entry nie agak lewat, tp raya sebulan kn...hehe..topik kali ini ialah lagu raya. apa lagu raya yg korang suka dgr ek? as for me, byk gaks ar. tp yg pasti bkn lagu siti.ahaks..aku akn tunggu lagu raya mamat exist..tajuk aku dh lupa tp lagu mcm "duhai bonda duhai ayahnda dengarkah rayuan anaknda yang jauh dimata"...heheh...then algu bergema takbir di pagi raya 4u2c...pastu lagu suasana hari raya anuar & elina..ini antara lagu feberet raya lh..yg lain aku dgr gaks lh tp biasa2 jer, kalu xkuar pn xper.tp kalu lagu yg 3 nie mcm wajib lh dgr n dinantikan..

mari nyanyi sesamer...lalala

ja, ne!

Kembali berkhidmat

Salam...aku masih ader 1 lagi hari utk berehat sblm aku kembali bkerja...uhuhu..aku mcm dh hilang momentum utk kembali bkerja..mcm maner nie..matilh aku..ok, i have few..well, not few but many assignments to be marked.quizzes to be done.adoi.terasa penat plaks dgn kehidupan mengajar ni...not to mention research ngn dr ng yg blm siap aper benda pn. aduhs. itu lg parah..then tadi bukak email, dpt email dr en ghazali pentadbiran, suruh renew surat samb kontrak aku. kena setelkn sblm 19 sept.which hari ahad nie. mcm maner aku nk jelaskn ngn org pntadbiran ni psl renew kontrak aku. fenin gaks mcm nie. aku kena buat yg trbaik sem nie. plg tidak trbaik dr sem2 yg sblm nie. aku adalah pendidik, so act like one lah! dang! itu pn ko x sedar lg ke jamilah ooiii....dah2, g wat keje..siapkn mark asgmnts students ko tuh...

ja, ne!

This is what i call 'Demam Raya'

Salaam...uhuk uhuk uhuk..
on tuesday 7 sept aku demam...then demam tuh brlanjutan lh sampai raya yg ke-4...yg plg dahsyat tuh masa mlm raya, panas yg amat n aku trketar2 batuk sampaikn xder suara..jd, pagi raya tuh, aku memohon ampun n maaf dgn bhs isyarat...heheh..pagi tuh aku g umah nenek aku yg sebelah umah nie, then trus blk umah...xlarat..batuk tekak pedih, berkahak plaks tuh..eeiiiwww....mmg seksa..insaf aku dgn bala n pengajaran yg Allah beri nie...then mlm raya tuh, kakak aku plaks demam,brjangkit ngn aku.so, kami berdua, dtemani abg cik n adik mad, g kbmc...(kbmc lagi)...mkn ubat bla bla bla...
raya ke-2 plaks seperti biasa sedara mara dtg ke umah..jadi mak aku masak lh ala kadar, wat nasi beriani n gulai watsoever...tp dis time around masak xbyk jd xlh penat sgt.raya ke-2 br ader suara skit..tp xleh nk gelak lg still pedih tekak..then raya ke-3 aku missed 2 weddings...xlarat n xsanggup nk g mjls yg ramai org dlm keadaan batuk mcm nie,..kot2 lh brjangkit ngn tetamu lain n aku pn x selesa dlm keadaan nie..raya ke-3 pagi breakfast kt umah ngah..pagi raya ke-3 adik mad plaks demam...panas bdn dier..then ptg skit abah plaks demam..k.long cirit birit plaks....aduhs parah dh org umah aku nie...mlm tuh ader family event...tp xsumer lh yg g sbb ramai yg xsihat..masuk raya ke-4...yg demam sumer dh ok cuma aku still batuk, k.long still cirit birit, mmg xkuar bilik...turun 4 kilo beb!..harap2 jgn tmabah ek long...ehhehe..adik mad pn cume batuk skit2, abah pn dh ok skit..hari ni plaks, raya ke-5, adik adam plaks demam...aduhs..lepas sorang, sorang yg kena..xper, ini dugaan dr Allah..aderlah hikmah dsebalik sumer nie...ehheh..tp mmg kami xg raya maner2 pn..duk umah jer..mmg hilang ke-best-an beraya...uhuhu...
pun bagaimana walau, sumernyer dtg dr Allah, dan kami sumer redha dgn aper yg jadi..

Selamat Hari Raya sumer!

ja ne!

of KBMC.....MRI....PAKAR PERDANA...

Salam everyone,...this post is meant for myself n my frens who sometimes dropped by. i'm not an active blogger obviously with the number of posts that i posted..ahaks. i only write when i feel like writing. so now, i feel like writing about these 3 things..KBMC, MRI, PAKAR PERDANA...
well, last saturday (4th Sept 2010) i was admitted to KBMC and still am..i registered around 12 noon then around 2pm i was brought to Pakar Perdana for MRI..i went there by KBMC's ambulance. Wow, nice and unforgettable memory ever. i had never been in an ambulance before. so i took 2 pictures in the ambulance. i cudnt post the pics now as i didnt have the cable to my mobile fon to connect to my laptop. the MRI was about 45 minutes. imagine that i had to stay frozen for 45 minutes and cudnt move an inch!..the tunnel was so small for a person of my size. my face was very very close to the upper side of the tunnel. at that time i was imagining myself in a coffin. i felt so sad and scared. i did fall asleep few times. then i went back to KBMC around 3.30pm...i had something attached to my right hand which i dont know what it is called.sumthg dat the nurse can inject d medicine into my body.so, i cudnt freely move my right hand as the needle wud hurt my (urat)..i had d difficulty to do d ablution..suddenly i felt scared, hopeless and brainless. i was about to pray and i didnt know how can i take my ablution? i tried to calm myself and said that this is a test from ALLAH. so, i managed to do it and performed my prayers..only until magrib prayer then ..xleh pose..hehehe...
my lil sis n lil bro came that nite as i asked them to bring my clothes..they bought mcdonalds..i ate french fries only okay...ehheeh..
then dis morning the doctr came (Dr. Abang Kilat) he's Sarawakian..i think...he told me the result of MRI..alhamdulillah, nothing serious. it's just that a disc between my 11th and 12th lumber is swollen n due to pressure, it affects my muscles and urat(sowee i forgot what urat is in english...hahaha)...pressure...of course my weight..meaning to say that i have to lose weight which i'm doing it now...and my active life...overused (d doctor said)..i cant stand for too long neither sit for too long. i'll have to undergo physiotherapy sessions for 12 times..he said that i can heal 100%..heheh..he said that at the moment i cudnt do aerobics as jumping and stretching can give more pressure to my spine...but i can cycle..hehe...and he said that i can be discharged tomoro...uhuhu..so, i called my lil sis to send me my laptp so that i can do sumthg..ehehhe...facebooking actually.
so, tonite (now), i'm alone..blogging..well, it's not that lonely and quiet here as my neighbours' relatives are 'entertaining' other patients here..screaming, crying, laughing, talking 'softly' that i can join in their discussion..ahaks..well, kids.blamelessness..
to be honest, i dont expect visitors as i'm not that sick and even if i am sick, i might want some peace and i dont think i will have the strength to explain my condition to every single visitor who came. well, it doesnt mean that i dont welcome visitors, frens u r free to come and visit me, but even if u dont come, i wont feel sad or wondering why u didnt come. i understand every1 is busy and we have limited time to do so many things. so, sms wud do. hehe..
as in my case now, i didnt inform all. i only told those who accidentally called me...
well, frens live a healthy life...and have a medical card. we never know when we will get sick or warded or watever.....

adios amigos..
ja ne!

p/s: dis post was written on d 5th sept monday around 2230...but then due to some technical probs..i cudnt publish d post instantly..so i saved it sumwhere else...not my fault k...