escapism

okay, disebabkan jiwa, hati dan kepala duk pikir byk benda yg aku rasa xkan berkesudahan, tp nk jugak pikir...aku rasa serabut..jadi, sebagai langkah escapism atau melarikan dirim yg mana, xbagus sebenarnya...aku nk post something kt blog ni...

ok, few days ago i had a chat (whatsapp) ngn sorang lagi sahabat dunia akhirat aku .Ruhil Nadiah Abu Bakar and terungkitlah satu gosip lamer yg bertahan lebih kurang 8 tahun! pergh! dasat kan..gosip liar dari part 2 tesl..2004 sampailah skrg..hahah...few frens, ruhil..bobo..ija..paah..ana...nah, mereka ni, bila sembang memang akan bertanya kabar berita gosip aku yg sorang nie...hahha..namanya harus dirahsiakan untuk tujuan keselamatan semua pihak..baguskan jamilah nie..

ok, meh nk cerita mcm mana bley trjadinya cerita ini..hmm...harituh, kawan aku telah putus cinta, sebagai tanda perpisahannya, bekas kekasihnya itu telah menghadiahkan seurat gelang...well, gelang tu, besar utk wrist my fren, jd biler my fren pakai n longgar yg tahapo kalu luruskn tangna ke bawah, gelang tuh bley trtanggal dari tgn...d aderlah few signs lagilh yg tanda2 nk putus tuh....aku pn x ingat dah..

nk dijadikan citer...aku pn pakai lh gelang tuh..disebabkan gelang tu besar and tgn aku pn besar, jd, secara logiknyer..mmg muatlah..so, mereka2 ni pn ckp, ha dh tau maksudnyer..maknanye mamat tuh nk clash sbb ader hati ngn ko jem...hahah..kami semua gelak sakan..well of course lh kami tau yg itu sekadar gurauan...aku pn layankan jer..best gaks main2 gini..hhehe..jadi, trcipta lah gosip yg berdekad ini..hahah

sampai skrg pun..depa duk tanyer...weh pakwe ko sihat ker? aku pn dgn selambernyer ckp..sihat jer..dier x kol ke jem..dah die br video kol td..owh ye ker..sihat ker dier..sihat sokmo dier..korang mcm mana relationship duk jauh nie..biasa jer..akmi mmg memahami..so no hal lah....then kami akan gelak sakan...haha...tp mmg best r moment tuh....moment biler duk sembang psl gosip itu..legend r..sepanjang hidup aku, inilah satu2nya gosip yg brtahan plg lamer....ahaks...

kalau mamat ni tau, mmg dier akan freak out lah..aku mmg xpernah ader hati pn ngn dier...sampai paah pernah tanyer aku, jem ko mmg xder hati ngn mamat nie ker....aku pn jawab dgn jujurnyer...xpernah weh....aku pn xtau naper..sbb mamat nie, menarik jgklh..sbb dier mcm ramai jer peminat..tp aku xpernah pn sembang ngn dier..eh, pernah ker? pernah brtegur saper kot..masa dier kapel ngn fren aku tuh..then biler dier clash, aku xpernah brcakap pn..bkn gaduh ker aper..sbb dier pn diam n tunduk jer kalu berselilsih...jadi aku pn buat yg samer lah..hehhe...kami aman lagi damai...cumer tak tau nk sembang aper.,...mgkn sbb dier bijak kot..aku rasa nanti kang kalu sembang aku tak faham aper yg dier ckp..or mgkn dier xfhm aper yg aku ckp..hehhe...

but anyway, to dat senior of mine, i mean no war k..peace...heheh..bkn kami mmpermainkan u ker aper..cumer, kawan2 dunia akhirat i nie, mmg suka mengusik i sbb i layankan jer mereka nie....heheheh...sowee....

ruhill...aku dh post! hahaha...like it? ahaks

ja ne!

keserabutan melanda

many things are bothering me now....many and many and many...

O Tanjyoubi Omedetou !

Happy birthday to u..happy birthday to u..happy birthday to Jaem and Zurin..happy birthday to u..

Allah selamatkan kamu...Allah selamatkan kamu..Allah selamatkan Jaem n Zurin..Allah selamatkan kamu..

Salam,

Ok, hari ni, hari lahir aku dan salah sorang sahabat dunia akhirat aku, Zurin..kami kongsi hari lahir.hahha..lahir pn waktu lebih kurang nak dekat2..cumer tmpt je lain..die kt selangor aku kt pahang..

jom, kita imbas detik yg menyebabkan kami tahu besday kami samer dan juga detik kepada permulaan perjalanan ukhuwah till jannah ni, insya Allah..

haritu, 4@5 Julai 2008, kami sama2 lapor diri masuk keje kt uitm kelantan, machang...kami sampai lebih kurang sama waktu..kami mmg dh kenal dr degree lg n mmg selalu jer brtegur saper n sempat sekelas masa part 1..tp xdelh rapat pun, sbb our circle of frens lain..then, memandangkan kami sampai lebih kurang mcm skali lh masa nk daftar tuh, kami pn isi borang skali...nk djadikan cerita, masa duk isi tuh. adelh duk tanyer few things psl borang tuh, then.,eh besday kita samerlah zurin..sbb trnmpk ic kami samer 841126..haha..mmg gelak r kami..excited plaks jumpa org samer besday..

she's the second besday samer ngn aku, selepas kazen aku, akem aiman..kami pn dgn bangga lah.ckp besday kami samer...then kami sebilik ramai2..pastu aku pindah masuk bilik lain yg kecik skit..zurin stay kt bilik besar tuh.tp kami ttp rapat and semakin rapat..jarang dpt jumpa sbb waktu kelas lain2..tp kami slalu berkontek..sms n kol..tp yelah , xkan lh kami nk ckp kt org yg kami selalu kontek kan..

personality kami ni...nk kata samer sgt..xlah jgk..tp mmg satu kepala and boleh faham walaupn xckp apa2...aku jenis yg bising n go here n there...zurin jenis xbyk ckp...kami both aktif ngn aktiviti kt uitm..tp aku aktiviti yg jumpa ngn org...etc..zurin, byk ngn audit..bezakan..sampaikan aku ingt lagi kak hanis n kak ain pernah ckp..lu n zurin besday samer tp korang mcm kontra...aku senyum jer..aku ckp on the outside, kami mmg nmpk kontra tp inside..kami agak similar..heheh..tp ye lah xkna nk ckp details kt org..heheh..

then sampailh kami kena pindah masuk building baru..Blok D..kena pilih partner..i bilik 2 org..jd, semestilah dan wajiblah kami sebilik..ahah..sebab? sebab kami BESTFRIEND..tp, people didnt know sb kami jarang lepak kt uitm skali etc..sbb kami xsmpt nk lepak skali..i believe that we have a very matured relationship in which that we dont have to be seen together 24/7 or hangout together all the time etc..enough that we know we have each other..if we do have the time then we'll hangout and drink coffee and chat..even if it's 5 minutes..it is a quality one :)

lps dh masuk bilik baru, people then started to learn that we are close.hahah..funny ha..then we made a very big decision together...by coincidence..we left uitm due to our own reasons...kami masuk bersama dan kelaur bersama..masuk cara baik..keluar pn dgn cara baik..alhamdulillah..

lepas masing2 dh bawa hala tuju masing2..zurin kawen n pindah g kl then dpt sorang angel..my lil rain..hehe..aku joind umk..still kami in touch..xlah selalu kontek..xperlu sms/ watsapp everyday or every week..we dont have to declare anything coz we know we have each other..

we laugh...we cry..we gossip..we talk..even in silence...it's a blissful silence (sbb zurin bkn jenis byk ckp yg xbrenti ckp..hehe)..

Thanks Allah for bringing her to my life...Alhamdulillah...

so, beb, happy birthday..love u much..xoxohttp://zurinslalaland.blogspot.com.au/

salam :)

G-a-za...pa-les-ti-n...is-ra-ei-l

Inilah kekejaman yang sedang berlaku...perang danperang danperang lagi..bilakah akan berakhir? maaf jika kenyataan ini kejam..tp saya kira mungkin tiada pengakhiran bagi peperangan ini..telah dinyatakan bahawa kaum ya-hu-di laknatullah akan tetap memerangi i-s-la-m sampai bila2...

setiap kali lepas solat, xpernah trlepas doakan untuk keamanan saudara i-sl-am ku di sana..tapi..terkadang terpikir..apa yg patutu aku doakan? kesejahteraan mereka? tapi mereka syahid di sana..mereka akan, insya Allah Jan-nah utk mereka..meraka akn lagi bahagia kelak..doakan utk peperangna brenti? tp memang terang lagi bersuluh dalam kitab suci bahawa y-ah-ud-i akan tetap memerangi kita...doa untuk kaum jahat itu dimusnahkan? mereka memang terang lagi nyata dilaknat....jadi..akhirnya aku doakan agar yg terbaek untuk saudara2ku disana..Allah maha mengetahui lagi arif....

it is undeniably true that saudara2ku di sana adalah insan2 terpilih...kalau diberi peluang..aku mahu ke sana..aku pun mahu berjihad...aku pun mahu mati syahid...aku pun mahukan syurga..aku sayangkan keluargaku..sangattttt cintakan mereka..namun maaf mama, abah,klong, abg iz, abg ngah, kak sha, abg cik, kak cik, adik mad, adik adam n anakku sufi....aku lagi cintakan agama ku...tp aku ttp berpijak di alam nyata..aku di sini dan para mujahidin dan mujahidah di sana...

selamat berjihad saudara2 ku...kukirim doa dan tangisanku untuk kamu...Allah knows best...

Salam...

Depresi

nahhh..ini lah depresi jiwa yang sering rakan2 dan senpai2 aku katakan...namun...ko br jer kt sini jem oiii...dh depresi nak balik kampung halaman..haha..

ye, memang benar aku depresi dan insya Allah akan pulang ke kg halaman...esok...yes! esok!..haha...alangkah gumbiranya hati ini...walaupun mengenangkan ribuan ringgit yang habis untuk kenderaan terbang ini..haha..namun, sbb depresi punyer pasal, nak jugak blk..by hook or by crook..i dont care..ngeh2..keras x ayat tuh..hehe..

kehidupan kt sini...agak perlahan dan aku yg mmg suka kerja..suka duk pejabat...n sentiasa sibuk ngn aktiviti...meetings..classes...mcm2 lh aktiviti kt tmpt keje tuh...biler dtg sini..senyap sunyi...sgt pasif...sampaikan aku jd depresi..aku xleh nk fikir ngn tenang..memang sangat down..nak explain  kt orang pn xtau mcm mana ...n xtau kalu org faham ke x..kalu org yg samb blaja mcm aku gaks...n duk oversea gaks...insya Allah akan fahamlh kot perasaan aku ni..

aku skrg duk umah sengsorang..sementara kawan aku samapi yg akn jd housemate and opismate aku..fezah..tp die insya Allah dtg bln nov..jd smentara tunggu dier dtg..aku duk sorang..rumah yg sgt sunyi sepi...pd waktu mlm terutamanya sbb siang hari aku g kampus..jd xlah terasa..jumpa kshida..sembang2 etc..tp biler blk umah...hmmm...n kawasan perumahan kt sini ni..mmg xbising..in fact kalu bising n jiran terganggu siap komplen bagai..xdenyer nak dgr bunyi lesung...sudip bercium ngn kuali...anak2 menjerit..artis dlm telly yg menjerit..anak jirang yg praktis untuk AF..anak2 duk jogathon dlm rumah...bola berdentam dentum luar rumah...memang xder..mmg sgt sunyi..n bagi aku..pasif..xkan lh aku nk tdo kt opis...tp kalu itu yg trpaksa aku buat...mungkin..ahha..tp insya Allah xlah kot..sbb aku dh nk blk esok.. akn dtg insya Allah ngn fezah 17 nov nanti...

so hopefully biler dtg blk nanti..aku akn lebih tenang ...aman..n bahagia..n of course..aku bwk blk books n journals..kena baca weh..kalu x mati aku..hahah...

ok then..ja ne!

Chinese @ Taiwanese ?

Salam,

now now...is he a chinese or a taiwanese? what's the different anyway? they speak the same language except that the accent might be a bit different..but still...he speaks mandarin..hahha...

head over heels? nope..this is some sort of entertainment for me...so that i'll be extrinsically motivated to go to the office..haha..no doubt,,,seeing him or bumped into him would carve a smile on my face and i wonder if it's obvious that he could sense that he is actually in danger..uhuh..poor him..

well, everybody loves RAYMOND :)

ja ne!

Hello ya'll

Salam and hello everyone....

ok, first of all..im in adelaide , australia...im doing my phd in intercultural communication...and im supposed to do some readings...writing a content page for my supervisors which due in 12 days from today. so...

i borrowed few books this morning, from the library obviously, then it rained so i had to stay in the library for few minutes...i didnt bring my umbrella with me and i didnt wanna run....so i stayed..plus, i don think i look nice when running..hahah..then...i walked to my office...at the TE building..it's a cabin anyway...haha..with 10 rooms in it. so kinda big aite. and it has RAYMOND innit..hahah...later i'll talk about him...let this post be about me first...ahaks..

when i reached at my room, i stood in front of my desk..thinking seriously on how should i re-arrange my pc..i didnt really like the original position of it, so i decided to change..and i did..sowee i didnt feel like snapping any picture of it..later i guess, well i'll be here for like...3 years!..so got plenty of time to do so..haha...

then i browsed youtube and checking my fb...dont wanna talk about my fb...i would like to share these 3 amazing songs that i recently started to like...well, not really recently..i know these songs like ages it's just that ...u know sometimes...there are times when we really get hooked up with few songs and it get stuck in your head like...all the time..so...the 3 songs are 1) Tell Him by Celine and Barbara....2) Love on Top by Beyonce...3) Move yourBody by Beyonce...

Tell Him
i am so in love with this song..i mean, how can someone understand you so much that he wrote a song that really speaks your heart...this song is helplessly true and the moment i listen to it, i could feel how much the persona really loved that guy and really afraid that he wouldnt respond to her feelings...

Love on Top
hahah....im so in love with this song too...ahha..very cathcy..if i have a boyfriend...or husband (Please Allah, send him to me...now?hehe,insya Allah)...i would definitely ask him to listen to this song...which represents how i feel at that time...sweet rite..haha...

Move your Body
now, i recommended my personal fitness instructor...kak hae to listen to this song..good for a workout and it is meant for teenagers to workout...it has like...7@8 steps in the song..

i dont wanna review much on the songs..as i think there are no words would be able to precisely describe my feelings towards these 3 songs. u just gotta listen to it...

that's all i guess...

ja ne!